The Diagnosis - Leigh's Disease

This might be the hardest post we've ever made. We knew this day might come where we may finally get an answer, but not all answers are the ones you want to hear. Braden has been diagnosed with either Leigh's Disease/Leigh's Syndrome or Leigh-Like Disease/Syndrome. It really doesn't matter, as the outlook and prognosis are the same. Braden has shown signs/symptoms since his birth, so his outlook means we are already on "borrowed time". (If anybody has any songs or poems you could send me about being on borrowed time, I'd love to have them). But ultimately, we are ALL on borrowed time. God is the only one in control, and we are not giving up hope, that God will bless our family with more time with Braden. I guess no matter how much time we get, it probably won't ever feel like enough.

Braden is such a fighter, so his fight may buy him more time with us. We have put him on the supplement regimen, what they call a "mito cocktail"... his will consist of CoQ10, thiamine, and carnatine for now. The supplements cannot cure his disease, but they can help make him more comfortable, and may help slow the progression of the disease. Braden also doesn't perfectly fit into all the things associated with the disease that are symptoms/markers/indicators... like "failure to thrive" is not in his vocabulary, as the double chin, puffy feet, dimples for knuckles, and the size of his wardrobe will all tell you.

We still believe everything happens for a reason, and this visit to OLOL is no exception. If our doctor had not wanted Braden to have this special ventilator, we wouldn't have been waiting around for an extra few weeks, and allowing us to come to the decision that since we had the time, and it had been a year since Braden's last MRI, that we should use the time to get a good look at his brain to see if there were any notable changes. And if the ventilator wouldn't have malfunctioned, we would never have gone back into the hospital, and Braden would not have been in such a worrisome condition which prompted a new MRI to compare it to the one before we left. Since both MRI's showed signs of progressive brain damage, we did an MRS (like an MRI, but looks at the cell function in the areas where there is damage) which confirmed the suspicions of our neurologist that what we have is Leigh's disease, and it IS progressing. We do know the area of the brain that is affected is related to his respiratory issues... and they say that these kids usually die due to respiratory or cardiac complications. The closest thing I can tell you about what we can expect is that he won't die of the disease, he will most likely suffer complications from respiratory failure or cardiac failure. In our case, it will probably be respiratory.

So where do we go from here? Well, we have a new ventilator (totally different brand), the LTV 950. Braden will be "resting" on the vent for several weeks as we transition him home into our regular routine before we can start trying to wean him off again. Want to hear some good news? Our little man has been on ROOM AIR with the vent for a whole day!! He is not requiring any oxygen support to maintain his sats in the 97-100 range! This means he is able to oxygenate on his own! :-) Our medical team will be doing what they can to get us home as soon as possible, so we don't spend any more time than necessary there.

THE BIG MEETING:
We did meet with Braden's entire care team: intensivist, pulmonary specialist, nursing manager, respiratory manager, social worker, vent/supply company, and the overseeing physician (who also happens to be our cardiologist). They were all extremely receptive to our concerns about what happened to us, how to make sure this won't happen again to us, and our suggestions on policies/procedures to implement to ensure better quality care for ALL patients who follow in our footsteps. They had already recognized one major breakdown in communication, and Tuesday had started what daddy and I are affectionately calling "Braden's Rule"... where the specialists, intensivists, social worker, child life, pharmacy, and respiratory all do rounds together at the same time (like a mini-family meeting) once a week for ALL vent-trach patients!! We were so pleased to see that they were already taking steps to ensure future family communications were more inclusive for all parties responsible for Braden's care (and the other kids too)!!!! We made some suggestions on transitioning from the hospital to home too that I think they will take to heart and try to implement for families going home on vents. They thanked us for taking the time and having the courage to confront all the issues with the entire team responsible for his care, and they thanked us for our candid comments and suggestions on how to make it better for EVERYONE. It made us feel like what happened to Braden was not all for nothing, they really do want to implement change where it's needed. They realized this need for change, because it could have ended differently if the parents were not as involved and astute to their child's needs like Brad and I are. It was a wake-up call, and they responded in a manner that makes us more comfortable about the future.

If you'd like to read more about the disease, here are some links:
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/bookshelf/br.fcgi?book=gene&part=narp
This one is the most comprehensive and the exact same 32 page print-out the neuro doc gave us, and a lot of it is doctor-speak that's over our head, but there is some really good info if you sort through it to the layman's portions:-)

http://www.ninds.nih.gov/disorders/leighsdisease/leighsdisease.htm
http://www.healthline.com/galecontent/leigh-syndrome
http://www.rareglobaldiseases.com/leighs_disease.php

Continue to pray for us. Braden needs strength and healing so he can come home. Mommy and Daddy will need strength, courage, patience, peace, and wisdom as we start making decisions about his care, and put together a plan for future parameters on how much support we will give our son to sustain his life, because technically the body can live forever on a ventilator. These are not easy decisions, and ones we probably won't share with everyone, as these are very personal decisions we have to make, and no matter what we decide, I am sure there will be opinions on both sides. I remember feeling gut-wrenched over the woman in Florida who's husband and mother did not agree, I would have never imagined that one day we could be in that situation too. We are praying for God's hand to guide us and let us carry out His will for our son. After all, my friend Stacey always reminds me that Braden does not belong to us, we were only asked to care for him here on earth for the amount of time decided by the Father. We will have to give him back someday, I pray that we have the strength for when the day will come.

We still have HOPE. Braden has already beaten the odds so many times it's almost unfathomable how much he is willing to fight to stay with us. We will keep HOPE that Braden being the anomaly that he is (because he still doesn't perfectly fit into Leigh's with all the symptoms), that he will once again prove the doctors wrong, and we will talk about our diagnosis for many years to come. Maybe we can be that 25% who lives longer than the current expectation.

Thanks for all your continued support, and for the prayers we know you will be sending up in the days ahead. We need them.
God's love and blessing to everyone!
The Wilson's (Braden, Kodi and Brad)